Pulling You In - Consistency

As I move and shake my way through life...sometime I get lost or caught up in the day to day. I sometimes won't post as often or go on a rampage. For those of you who actually read what I write, the album reviews, celebrity updates, poetry, and thoughts, please know that I appreciate it! Launching this blog has been challenging for me because at times I wonder "who really cares about what I write or think? Who really believes in me?". Then I tell myself that I came into blogging simply to prove to myself that I can do and establish my presence in media. Everything I blog about...are actual conversations or parts of my life. My hobbies, talents,and so forth are in the development stage right now.

I am actually nervous to push the limit and truly say how I feel at times about topics in the world, media and so forth. I fear controversy, hatred, etc. The reason why is because this is an opening of me, an expression of minds I wanted to do for a long time!

So I know that consistency is key....but I'm just trying to figure myself out in this BIG WORLD! As I do that, I wonder what will pull people into my blog.


Just a rant of mines. I hope whoever reads enjoys what I create.


Thank You,
-KL

Where Are You?

 

"Peek-a-boo"

Hola readers! Wanted to do something, a little check in of sorts. A break from the album reviews I've been serving. :) 

Have you ever been so busy and wrapped up in life that you feel like it's all a blue? You feel like it's passing you by yet you can't stop it. 

This morning I literally googled "how to stay calm" and found a plethora of leads that aid with calmness. 

One thing I literally did was look at my bedroom wall and repeat to myself "I am Calm, I am Happy, I am Focused, I will Succeed" 

Sometimes you have to literally speak to YOURSELF to get it together. I said it about 3 times repeatedly and felt a little better. 

I often have to remember WHERE I AM. And ask myself... Are you enjoying the ride? Did you complete that goal? If not, why don't you do it? 

So for those anxious nerve wrecked bee's out there, it's all gonna fall together. We don't know how, I don't know how, but sit tight and do what you can. 

Hugs, wishes, and kisses.  

The Weight

The Weight of It all 

As I sit and reflect on what has occurred  within the last two months, I can't help but feel worn out. What hurts is the fact that there is nothing that I can do for Trayvon Martin and the 17 year old Jamaican Boy. It's frustrating. Both of them are not getting the justice they deserve. 

I feel the weight if it on my back, on my heart. It's heavy. 

We care, and we know what happened. We know it wasn't right and that innocent lives were taken away. 

A lillte ole me is simply putting this out there in hopes that someone will take something away from the acknowledgment. 

They are me and are a part of me. 

Hugs, kisses, and wishes. 

"I Don't Care if Your Gay, Just Don't Flaunt It!"

Living life as a gay male, I often get frustrated by the logic of some people. Some people embrace the "feminine" qualities within gay men and some despise it.

It really makes me want to run face first into a wall sometimes when I hear people say "it's ok that your gay but, why do you have to throw it in my face? Why do you have to flaunt it? Why can't you be gay but still act like a man?" 

Don't you understand that we are people? It's all expression. Gender expression, sexual expression, physical expression. Heterosexuals get to express themselves and their qualities/characteristics. So why can't we do the same? 

I don't view homosexuality as a lifestyle, it's a path of experience in my eyes. We all have different experiences that bring us challenges. 

The gender binary is so LOCKED! Meaning that "men are supposed to do this, and women are supposed to do that!" But where do we, as LGBT people, fall in the spectrum? 

Those comments, questions and judgements are not only appalling but very insensitive.  Many people have this perception that all gay men are feminine and act the same. So not true! There are masculine gay men, feminine gay men, and some who have a mixture of masc/fem qualities (Them Butch Queens yassssss!!)

And lets not other the hatred within in the gay community. As men, we thrive off of being as straight as possible. "Oh I'm straight acting! I'm a top! I'm this I'm that! I'm a real man! Come taste this machoness!" But it's not a debate about who is a real man, it's about being true to who you are! 

That is why I stand tall as a proud feminine gay male. I was taught that there was something wrong with me. But  I had to fight and continue to do so everyday to prove that I am who i am and that's ok. 

At the same token, I have had to understand that by me living my life, I am taking a risk yet opening the door for other LGBT people all over the world. In a patriarchal world where heterosexual men thrive, our lives are a political stance against the norm. So we have to stay strong and continue to open doors for one another because after racism, homophobia is another festering sickness  of the world. 

So if you are homosexual, be you and stay true to you! I'm trying to do the same! Furthering my understanding of who I am and were I got in this BIG world! Be safe, be wise, be careful. 

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