Life is a Beautiful Struggle

Although I struggle, I continue to struggle, I hope that one day I'll be solid. I hope that one day when I wake up, I'll look out MY window and know MY value. I'll know that all of the sacrifices, blood, sweat, and tears mean something not only to myself, but to someone else.

I'll feel connected, I'll feel as if my voice matters. In a world that constantly tells me no, tells us NO, "You don't belong, you don't fit in, your not Black enough, your not classy enough, your not man enough, your not woman enough, your not rich enough, I hope that when I look out MY window, my perspective, my voice, my being, will have a positive affect on the lives of others like me and not.

For all of us who are different, rather it be our skin color, gender, sexuality, gender expression, physical ability, ethnicity, religion, thoughts, just know that you are special. And like you, I struggle to see that in myself, sometimes I forget my worth because so many around me constantly tell me that I'm not worthy. But I am, we are. So for all the outcasts out there, I see you baby.

The answers are there, the answers aren't there. Some people know, some people don't know. Does anyone really know?

So just take a look, look out your window, and know that life is a beautiful struggle.

"B. Scott - Mother Muffin Snubbed by the BET Awards"

"Look, we all know its a political world and things work a certain way, but in entertainment you would think that one could fully express themselves without any barriers."

So I must do this for the record. For the community. For all Black LGBT people who are constantly silenced by the white community and  black community. B Scott, a famous YouTube sensation that has expanded his career into the likes of E Entertainment, Bravo, The Tyra Banks Show, Mariah Carey, Jamie Fox & Sirius Radio, and Ebony Magazine; is definitely one of LGBT's finest.

The BET Awards snubbed B. Scott, telling him to switch out of his heels during the BET pre- show. Now first of all you know B. Scott looked fabulous, hair laid and face BEAT FOR THE HEAVENS, GALAXIES, and GODS.It saddens me because B.Scott didn't even look like himself. As a true love muffin  I'm sure other love muffins feel me, B. Scott DID NOT LOOK HAPPY. He didn't look like himself. He seemed distraught, as if he was trying to hold it in and I know it burned his spirit on the inside. I honestly thought BET supported him FULLY. 
So lets think critically about this. Why was he snubbed BET? Is it because he challenges what the black community constantly neglects? Is it because he is fabulous and looks better than have of the females? Is it because HE IS LIVING IN HIS TRUTH!? Y'all got the game twisted. How are you going to hire someone and then change them!? It's ENTERTAINMENT, not corporate America.


We're you afraid that B. Scott would send the wrong message to viewers? Y'all need to check his plate boo! His viewers are DIVERSE! If anything he would've helped your brand. He would have helped strengthen your BRAND! Your trying to do better BET and I see it, but this was not right. It's disrespectful. You allow people to have their breast hang out and WEAR NO CLOTHING then you want to ask him to tune it down? Don't be hypocritical! Don't even go there! 


People on stage twerking and acting a fool. It reminds me of church or something. I completely understand the predicament that B. Scott was in. I've been in numerous situations where someone asked me to tone it down, and I couldn't say much nor did I have anyone to help me fight. 


So B. Scott, honey you have a community of people like ourselves, black feminine gay men, black women, and an array of others who KNOW what happened to you and will blast BET for it.

I personally commend you for handling it like a trooper. Been a fan if you since I was 16 years old!!! You are truly a blessing to the world. So please know that this situation with BET was a door that you opened. That means that you are doing what your supposed to do! So we see it and all that you've accomplished! Keep going girl! This is your purpose lovely, I know you know that the spirit is always with you and is using you to communicate some issues that society neglects all the time.

And for ya'll haters out there who are stating that B. Scott is being ungrateful, please have several seats and get it together real quick. He is very humble and knows where he came from. How would you feel if you went somewhere to work and they asked you to turn off who you are? They told you your tie was a bit much for them or you need to change your outfit? Wouldn't you feel disrespected and unappreciated? When someone asks you to do a job for them, they obviously see something in you. 

Instead of muffling people, they need to be focused on expression. You can have everything else on your network, EVERYTHING else yet you can't let the LGBT be themselves. That's the issue, we always encourage LGBT people in our community to tone it down and muffle it. PEOPLE ALREADY KNOW! They know the B. Scott brand! 

My heart is in support of the one and only  B. Scott!

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"A Few Thoughts On Nelson Mandela: Fulfillment"

I wonder what he is currently thinking as he reflects on his life. We all know that Mandela has been having severe health issues lately.

For a leader who has literally liberated so many people, African and not, Nelson Mandela has truly changed the world by the work of his mere existence. He lived his life.

After reading bits and pieces of his autobiography, I realized how vital he is to history. He is an important piece of it.

I just often think of what people like himself think when they are in their last days. Do they have thoughts such as "Did I do what I was meant to do? Is my job done? Did I love this life and can walk out of it in physical form, knowing that I fulfilled my purpose? Did it all mean something to me? Did it mean something to them?

I often think those thoughts when it comes to the movers and shakers of our time and the past.
Do we see the meaning behind his life? Behind ours? 

Also it made me question life in general. For the record this isn't meant to be a somber or sad blog post, I'm just posing the question of fulfillment and happiness with our lives. Because death makes the material not matter. It's what we do in this life that is special. Get my jist?


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